I'm back, finally. I'm no longer dating the girl, I'm engaged to a fantastic man, I'm still best friend with the asshole but I've added some new ones in there, there is jae- love him to death. we have alot of history, and i wouldnt let him go for the world like, he will forever be mine regardless to who were with. LJ, who has turned into my go to man, and miss Eva, who is a girl from high school who turned out to be the only one I had left in my dark times. Also, I haven't really gone through those dark times lately. I've learned to cope really well.
So yeah, I'm back!
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- Current Location:US, New Jersey, Ocean, Butterfly Rd, 311
the suns shining but i feel so dark, empty and worthless. i really feel like i wanna give up.
i have no hope no faith nothing. i feel so alone even though i have so many people. Someone
should have warned me ahead of time that my life would be like this cause then i would have done so
many thins different. i would have asked god not to bring me into the world, how could someone with so much
power allow someone like me to feel like this? Its been 2 hours of me crying now. and as soon as i stopp it starts
again, i wish everything was different. i wish my life was so much easier. i wish my wrist didnt burn. i wish i had a pill.
i wish i never had to go through this.
but you know what none of thats going to change and im still going to feel worthless, helpless, and hopeless.
if i could end everything right now.. I would.
- Current Location:dark room
- Current Mood: crushed
- Current Music:you found me-the fray
- Current Location:sammies houseee
- Current Mood: content
- Current Music:the voices in my headd
okay so im like just in a bad mood.... like i dont know how to explain it really but
its driving me insane. and i honestly feel like shit. mah stomach hurts
I havent had mah period since fucking novemberrr. so thats making me angry.
i dont know exactly whats going on in my mind or how im feeling but its not cool
im not likin it onnneee bitt
- Current Location:Codys room
- Current Mood:displaceddd
- Current Music:Haloo
Your a fucking asshole. You have no idea how much i really just want to punch you in the face.
All the shit i've done for you and the shit you've put me through.
This shit we've gone through. i cant begin to explain how much i hate you. Seriously if i had the
chance i'd just start wildin out on your face. Boy im a little girl but i can fuck your world.
you have no idea how much i fucking hate you. You were supposed to be my best friend. You
taught me almost everything. well fuck this now. Fuck you niggah When you get locked up dont
call me for commersary. dont write me looking for forgivness. Dont expect me to come visit you cause it's not happening.
I cant stomach looking at you. You make me sick nigga. Your not even mah nigga anymore. i fucking hate you.
We're fucking done! i hope you get your ass takin in county. You will once they find out why your there!
- Current Location:room
- Current Mood: pissed off
- Current Music:Lil Waynes World 2
I cut again btw. apparently this time they were
deeper. no one really understands. I wish they
did. Oh and btw i highly doubt i still have a girlfriend.
and if i do im fucking done wit that too
im basically done with life. like i really want to give up.
but how do i expect people to understand.
so basically NO IM NOT OKAY DAMN IT
stop fucking asking stop acting like you
know whats wrong honestlyyyyyy!
you dont care and i highly doubt you ever have or will.
Im just that girl. you know, the one you cant save.
the one who slipped thru the cracks. the one
no one really cares to check her wrists or
ask her how much she crys. No one. listen honestly
people dont talk to me like you know me cause you dont
You dont kno half the shit i've been thru. and right now i
cant even tell you what i going thru. when i figure it out
you'll be the first to know i promise. Now fuck this.
- Current Location:Roselle ready to die.
- Current Mood:Crying
- Current Music:Listen to mah girl tell her ex how much she loves him.
- Current Location:JR's bedroom wit babyy
- Current Mood: confused
- Current Music:Just dance
babygirl your amazing, i love everything about you.
your smile, your attitude, your eyesss You are perfecttt.
baby girl i love youuuuu
- Current Location:stairs
- Current Mood: loved